20. Face my health fears (Mental and physical… Let’s do this “Adulting”)
Looking back at this goal I really don’t know what I expected to achieve and what I need to do to “achieve” it. “Health fears” really could be a never ending list. Also, a list that likely will continuously be changing due to the unavoidable milestones we face as humans.
So, I faced the biggest mental and physical fears within my control right now. Well… Almost… But this is my list and I can cross off what I want when I feel I need to. So here we go…
The Physical-
For as long as I can remember I’ve struggled to breathe, particularly through my nose. However, it wasn’t until I did my Breathwork Practitioner course that I actually realised that this struggle wasn’t “normal”. When doing alternate nostril breath and having no air move through my left nostril I reflected on the fact that this is not right at all…
It was only at the end of 2023 that I felt a “pop” under my eye and it all really went downhill with my ability to just breathe. This was the clear moment where my body let me know it wanted help.
So… On Monday I finally gave in and had my little “nose job” (or in professional terms a Septoplasty and Turbinate Reduction). I’m still in a lot of pain and struggling to get through enough air to talk, but I am so happy that I decided now is the time to just do it! I have lived with a very deviated septum for quite some time so I am excited to be able to actually give my physical body a better quality of living and breathing.
Throughout my learning about the importance of breathwork for mindset, health and wellbeing I know this little change will be life changing. Bring on some intense breathwork practice in the coming months!
The Mental-
Well… I’m still coming to a solid decision with what I need to do with this one. I live as an open book in hopes that experiences in my life can help others in some way. I am also a strong believer in finding what “works” best for each individual in managing their own lives. So when the word “ADHD” was continuously said to me by several professionals, co-workers, friends and family things did start to make sense. I also started doing my own research and began to have the information I needed practically handed to me that lit up that little light bulb in my head (but more on that subject in another challenge coming soon).
ADHD is not always the “loud child” running around being “naughty” stereotype that society has highlighted for many years. Sometimes it’s the impulsive woman who has ten projects on the go at once, struggles to maintain relationships, is highly disorganised but yet still somehow “functions” and is overwhelmed by the simple decision of “what do I want to eat” when a menu is in front of them. They may also struggle with the overwhelm of a supermarket but yet a room full of glitter, colour and everything else “extra” brings a strange sense of comfort.
Basically… The more I looked into what so many others were pointing it out to me the more things started to make A LOT of sense. The way I had been living my life ticked a lot of boxes in the diagnosis checklist. But most importantly, it began to put awareness of how I can try to regulate when I am experiencing “signs” that are having a challenging impact in my life.
I do not have a formal diagnosis- but this is because right now $1200+ to me right now feels like a lot of money to pay for a confirmation that does not make a difference to how I am trying to live my life. I have discovered some amazing resources of my own and am learning how to best “support” my mind. I am also openly talking to those around me and asking for a bit of help when I need it (even if that helps it for what should be a basic task like cleaning my bedroom).
Actually going through with the test for a diagnosis that I have had sitting here for months feels too overwhelming right now (I know.. Ironic right?). It’s definitely a future task, but right at this very moment, I have some great supporters who are there to remind me that my little quirks just make me who I am. But in the meantime, my sparkly brain has felt a lot more at peace.
So that’s a BIG two health fears. I’m glad I have finally made myself face! Would I have faced them without them being on this list? You would hope so.
Now to go back to “resting” my boy and mid so I am prepared for the next challenges.
Positive Mind Waves 